A little background info....

I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.

I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Please god bring back september

It is November.  I do not like November.  Work gets longer, harder and more stressful.  Texas won't decide if its summer, spring, fall or winter.  And then there are the holidays.  I love the idea that I get to see people who I don't necessarily see all year long and I love seeing the looks on people's faces when I give them something special but the holidays are stressful.  And this year seems to loom just a little higher than the others.  Babies.  Christmas cards, gifts, photos, and gatherings thrust other people's children in my face.  I have known this was coming and had hoped I would find myself in a better place when this month began but, unfortunately I'm not.  So I will brace myself for the inevitable.  Wish me luck.
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