A little background info....

I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.

I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Feel it coming in the air at night

I can feel the air get colder, I can feel my breath catch, I can feel that overwhelming sadness coming to wrap its shadowy arms around me and pull me silently backwards.  I can feel that scream caught in my throat and feel the eyes on my back.  I can feel that guilt, the envy, the sadness and the overwhelming desire to stop breathing.  I feel it coming.  Its coming for me and I cannot stop it.
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