A little background info....

I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.

I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Everybody but me

Cheers to one of my best friends JB (or I suppose JU now) on her newly minted nuptials.  Congrats darlin, glad to see you so happy.  =)


This made me think about something I mentioned to a dif friend last week.  Everyone I know is married, in a relationship, having kids, working, and generally being happy.  All my friends are happy but me.  I'm the only one left behind now.  I wonder now if that is my fault, am I REFUSING to be happy?  Things could be worst, they HAVE been worst actually.  Maybe I'm stopping myself.  And if I am, then why?  Why would I stop myself?  I don't know how to accept calm and happy?  I don't think I deserve happy?  What is the answer?
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