We were at the office today and TB was having one of those lethargic, burnt out sort of workdays so I suggested he do something other than work and cut up some photos I had printed for a few minutes. After he was done, I gathered them up, 'Thanks for cutting these for me. See? I told you that you wouldn't mess them up.' He remarked, 'I tend to mess everything up somehow I just figured I could mess those up too.' I told him, 'I don't think you mess things up, you just keep life interesting.' And as I said that I turned around to see him leaning waaaay back in his desk chair and then throw a star shaped stress ball straight into his eye. He yelled that it hurt and doubled over while we both cracked up. 'I think you just made my point for me dear.'
Its the little things that keep life interesting. It certainly is never dull at my house. Or work I guess.....
I miscarried in 2007 in my 2nd trimester and have dealt with medical/emotional issues since then, trying to move past the problems and the pain. Every day is a chance to find a silver lining and a positive outlook on my now changed life. There is a 7% chance I can conceive, and that is only if my health changes dramatically soon. I would'nt have thought about children at this time in my life had it not been taken from me.
A little background info....
I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Good Advice
This article has some good advice about how to talk to your childless friends if you are a parent. I have to agree with all of these things. =)
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