Is it worth not having children because you are scared to pass down traits you dont like about yourself or in a relative? Does it make sense to pick your mate based on breeding characteristics first? Is it harder to find someone who has the traits you would want your child to posess or to teach your child to forgo those characteristics they have control over? Nurture vs Nature? Should maximum breeding be your priority? Is that old fashioned? Why do so many young women have reproductive problems? Is it the hormones in our meat, milk and water? Is it the pressure to look and act unhealthy?
My mind is full of questions today, not much else to say.
I miscarried in 2007 in my 2nd trimester and have dealt with medical/emotional issues since then, trying to move past the problems and the pain. Every day is a chance to find a silver lining and a positive outlook on my now changed life. There is a 7% chance I can conceive, and that is only if my health changes dramatically soon. I would'nt have thought about children at this time in my life had it not been taken from me.
A little background info....
I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
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