A little background info....

I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.

I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Bad dreams

Had a terrible dream that I was living with my aunt and uncle in some trailer house and was very large and pregnant.  While standing in the kitchen my stomach starts to bleed and my uncle begins to yell that we need to go to the hospital.  I am too petrified to move and stand there bleeding from what looks like a scar across my lower abdomen.  They are asking me how far along I am and I don't know.  Things begin to swirl and as I hit the ground my body wakes up in a cold sweat. 
Not fun.  This might be my new worst fear.  Move over creepy killer clowns and dolls that talk to you, I have real issues now.

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