I went to my doc last week for my quarterly check and he told me yet another strange explanation about the things my body is doing. Bring on the circus freak, mwc has a new issue.
He tells me that my uterus muscles have been inactive so long now that if they do not contract within the next six months they will be completely atrophied and they will never move again. So basically I am screwed once again. I am doing the 'induction' in March but that is 3 months away so if that doesn't work I will have to go through it again immediately and if THAT doesn't work I will just have to live with my swollen muscles and all the pain that comes along with it. Great.
I miscarried in 2007 in my 2nd trimester and have dealt with medical/emotional issues since then, trying to move past the problems and the pain. Every day is a chance to find a silver lining and a positive outlook on my now changed life. There is a 7% chance I can conceive, and that is only if my health changes dramatically soon. I would'nt have thought about children at this time in my life had it not been taken from me.
A little background info....
I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
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