Although my mission was to cut out unnecessary time wasting for the holidays and focus on budgeting and not being Scroogey I really missed my blog. I feel like this is a great place for me to put the secret scary thoughts down and process through them. So I am back to blogging and I am actually going to try blogging from my phone this week. Yikes.
To be honest I have not started on my steps that are due by the end the week for my 6 month mental health challenge to myself but I am committed to getting them done on time and not screwing around. So you should see those soon. Just wanted to check in. Thanks guys for your support.
I miscarried in 2007 in my 2nd trimester and have dealt with medical/emotional issues since then, trying to move past the problems and the pain. Every day is a chance to find a silver lining and a positive outlook on my now changed life. There is a 7% chance I can conceive, and that is only if my health changes dramatically soon. I would'nt have thought about children at this time in my life had it not been taken from me.
A little background info....
I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
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