Once again I am taking Gypsy Mama's idea and writing for 5 min fri. You write for just five minutes on the topic and don't censor or correct yourself. After five minutes post what you have. =)
I'm catching up on weeks I have missed.
Whole....
I feel a whole lot better than I did a couple of weeks ago but I am still working on getting completely better.
I have a huge fear that I will never feel whole again. I worry that my loss has changed me too much and will not let me be the person I was before. I wonder if I will be happy someday without the thought of what was lost. I wonder if things will always be weird and funny. I generally feel good about our decision not to force things though, and I am happy we are talking and taking control of things again. I want to have a happy home and family, if the children in my life are not included in my home then so be it. It doesn't make life less full or me less whole.
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