Once again I am taking Gypsy Mama's idea and writing for 5 min fri. You write for just five minutes on the topic and don't censor or correct yourself. After five minutes post what you have. =)
Home.....
(I am aware I'm late and its not Friday)
I find myself slipping and calling my office home and my parents' house home as well as my own apartment. When it comes out I immediately groan because I either work so much that I feel like I live at the office and call it my home or I am so used to living in the same house with the same dynamic for 16 years that I call my childhood home my home now. Being a part owner of this business gives me a lot of pride and sense of ownership here so I guess its not that bad to spit out home by accident and my parents' place was my home for a huge part of my life and I have only lived on my own for five years and that isn't much compared to the time spent there.
When I call work or my parents' place home I get aggravated because they represent two things in my life that I want very badly to get past. My family is a group of entrepreneurial people that like to work hard and long hours to make the business they started grow. On the other side of that, we are all workaholics. I always swore I would be the type of person that can put work aside while I am on vacation and not take the office home with me each night. Calling work home just reminds me how hard that is. Especially when the business does so much for me, I feel obligated to do my best to be flexible even in my off hours.
When I call my parents' house home it reminds me of the often unhealthy situations and family dynamic I grew up in. Although I love my family very much and have lots of fun and happy memories with them, our day to day lives were a big struggle. When I go to my actual home I feel sick and out of control because its probably not very clean and I usually curl up in bed tired.
When I'm in a good mood home makes me think of my cats and my husband.
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