Once again I am taking Gypsy Mama's idea and writing for 5 min fri. You write for just five minutes on the topic and don't censor or correct yourself. After five minutes post what you have. =)
I'm catching up on ones I have missed.
In real life....
In real life you cannot bitch about how things are not fair. You and I are different and do not deserve the same things. So just shut up. Those guys over there have been through things you don't know about. People you have never even noticed notice you every day. You just can't complain about whether things are fair or not. We have all been brought up with positive reinforcement so it makes sense that working hard gets you good things. That's just not how it always happens. Sometimes good people get bad stuff. Sometimes its not a happy ending. Things don't just go away.
I miscarried in 2007 in my 2nd trimester and have dealt with medical/emotional issues since then, trying to move past the problems and the pain. Every day is a chance to find a silver lining and a positive outlook on my now changed life. There is a 7% chance I can conceive, and that is only if my health changes dramatically soon. I would'nt have thought about children at this time in my life had it not been taken from me.
A little background info....
I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.
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