A little background info....

I have been dealing with medical issues regarding my reproduction capability for the last three and a half years after a very bad miscarriage situation. As I was working through a difficult period one day I realized that more and more people and characters around me seem to be dealing with similar circumstances. TV shows, movies, neighbors and friends are struggling because they cannot or may not have children. This is a place to express my feelings about my situation and hopefully help someone else express theirs.

I may not know what other mothers know, but I am a mother without my child and I do what I can to cope.

Friday, February 24, 2012

Five Minute Friday-Grit

Thanks MH for the encouragement, I AM going to make a 5 minute Friday post today.  Ignoring it because it didn't come from Gitz is not really the best choice.  I also for some reason have it in my head that I need to do all the ones I missed and when I looked back I found that I have not posted one since September and have missed 22 of them.  Well damn.  Thats quite a lot.  Maybe it will get me back in the habit of posting though.... stay tuned.


Ok Here goes.

Once again I am taking Gypsy Mama's idea and writing for 5 min fri.  You write for just five minutes on the topic and don't censor or correct yourself.  After five minutes post what you have.  =)


Grit

Grit makes me think of determination.  It makes me think of the internal motivation and want that must be strong to go for the goal you really want to accomplish.  It also makes me think of sports, but most things make me think of sports so that part is a little irrelevant.  Mostly flag football games played at the park and the snowy games in Green Bay that are fun to watch or the loud smack you hear when the hockey players check each other into the glass.  Man, I love hockey.  Those guys must have to stick through a lot to get what they really really want.  I mean yea, eventually when you are the pro you get lots of perks and goodies and its fun to be a celebrity. (Darryl Johnston is still the only person who ever rendered me speechless when I met him)  But think of all the dieting and flying and training and work and rules and curfews and unrealistic expectations you must live up to in order to actually be a pro athlete.  How it must feel to want something sooo badly.  I don't know that I have a specific goal like that.  I have regular goals, get healthy, be happy and protect my family but I don't know if I have anything that I have spent my life working towards.  I wonder if its too late for something like that to appear.  I don't think you can really go looking for those kinds of things, something that so moves you has to find you.  It cannot be found.  Or tried.  Or looked for. 


Hmmm.... that didn't really go where I thought it would.... I guess thats the point of these things though.

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