I know its been a while guys, I have a million excuses but mostly I've just been overwhelmed. I am trying to get back to this because its something I really like doing.
I've been going to physical therapy lately and have added TWO more doctors to the ones I already see so it has been a little nuts. My new meds make me feel awful and work has been busy and everyone I know is sick or hurt so I have been running around all kinds of crazy and getting nothing done. Its times like those that I feel like a 'sick person,' I don't have energy to clean my house or make dinner, I don't have the strength to help my great grandmother out of the car and I just don't have the patience for poor TB who is stuck doing it all. Ugh. I don't like feeling at all helpless and thats what bouts like this feel like. I am working really hard at PT though and feel like its helping a lot so I plan to have more energy soon.
On the other hand, TB has been pretty jerky lately so as an I'm sorry he has been cleaning our apartment. Really cleaning it. Cleaning it the way I used to clean it. I am pretty OCD and any spec or spot bothers me, I don't like things out of place or unorganized and I find joy in throwin things away and having a clean space. TB, not so much. If it does not smell awful, the house is clean. Needless to say we are different and I do not force him to clean the way I want to when I can't do it. Our house is pretty spotless right now. It is a very nice gesture to see him work so hard when I know it isn't important to him. He even scrubbed the baseboards.
Seeing the clean house lets me exhale a little and feel a little more in control and supported. Its hard to be the spouse of someone sick all of the time, he sure puts up with a lot.
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